Header art credit to cxaos – Thanks for being amazing girl!
Summary: Days, weeks, months after the final battle, everyone is still relearning how to go about their lives. Lucy has something she hasn’t yet told Natsu, something important; it’s too bad that she can’t see his reaction. Inspired by a sketch by aloosh-s on tumblr.
Rating – T for ideas and scenes
Genre – Romance & Angst
Word Count – 1,609 Words
Natsu watched as Lucy slept. She was in one of his old shirts and was laying over his scarf; Happy beside her, happily dreaming of fish. As Lucy twitched in her sleep, dragging his scarf closer to her chest, Natsu lay a hand on her head. As her legs rose a bit, making a small alcove for Happy, Natsu’s shirt rose up, exposing her thighs. She sighed and relaxed in the position.
It had been nearly four months since the final battle. Or what they were calling the final battle, and only one person from Fairy Tail wasn’t with them anymore. Well, technically two, but Mavis was technically dead anyways.
“Natsu.” She mumbled, and the man smiled softly, leaning over and kissing her forehead.
“I know Luce.” He stroked her hair as she leaned back slightly, resting her back against his knee. A small smile crossed his features again as he rest his head on his other hand while leaning on his propped knee.
“Mmm, fishy wishy.” Happy mumbled and Natsu chuckled, watching his partners as they slept peacefully.
“You two are so funny when you sleep. Ya know?” Lucy’s face scrunched up as though she was thinking about it, before she shook her head and sighed back into the position, holding his scarf close.
“Nat…su.” She mumbled again, more following. “Love you.” His smile turned sad as he slowly lay behind her, sliding into her.
“I love you too, I just wish I could say it to you.” Lucy sat up suddenly, with a light scream, but Happy didn’t wake. “What’s wrong Luce?”
“Oh,” she replied. “Just a bad dream, again.”
“Again?” He asked her.
“It’s okay. I can deal with it.”
Natsu frowned, lightly touching her hair. “You shouldn’t have to.”
“Maybe if I eat something it’ll help. Oh, Mavis, that’s such a Natsu answer to a problem.” Natsu chuckled, watching as she slowly stood up, grabbing his scarf and wrapping it around her neck. Natsu followed after her silently.
“Whatcha gonna eat Luce?”
“Hmm, ice cream?” She asked, pulling out the tub she had in the freezer.
“No! Don’t have anything to do with that ice popsicle freak.” She chuckled, shaking her head and putting the tub back, resting a hand on her stomach briefly.
“Alright, how about some chicken?” Natsu grinned at the girl.
She chuckled again, that hand falling back to her stomach. “Spicy or regular?”
“You don’t like spicy, Luce.” Natsu frowned, watching as the blonde’s face lit up with an idea.
“Fine, both. Regular for me, spicy for you.” Again Natsu frowned, but said nothing as the girl chuckled again before cooking the food. “And if Happy wakes up, I’ll make some fish for him.” She looked over her shoulder and flashed a brilliant smile, making Natsu freeze before grinning after she turned back.
Natsu went over to her, wrapping his arms around her waist, before yanking back quickly. “You’re gaining weight Luce.”
“I know.” Lucy set her hands on her stomach, smiling, before frowning sadly, pressing her lips into his scarf. “I love you Natsu. I’ll never stop.”
“And I’ll never stop loving you, you know that.”
“I know you’ll do the same.” Natsu rolled his eyes.
“I just said that weirdo.”
“Hey Lushi!” A voice called out, and the blonde quickly wiped the tears that were forming before turning and looking at Happy.
“Want some fish little buddy?”
“Yeah! But, why are you making spicy chicken?” Natsu leaned in, watching his partners.
“Don’t worry about it. Cooked or not?”
“Cooked! Dang, Carla is rubbing off on me huh?”
“Yeah. When’s your kitten coming buddy?”
“I don’t know. She’s cranky. Kicked me out yesterday, but I think it ought to be soon, she’s been warming that egg for a few weeks now, huh?”
“And if I’m correct it only took Natsu and Lisanna a few days for you to hatch. But who knows how long the egg was there before Natsu’s destructive behavior got you down.” All three of them chuckled, and Natsu smiled reminiscently.
When he looked back, Lucy had finished cooking, setting everything down on the table. She giggled as Happy immediately dug in, then looked over at the chair Natsu was standing by sadly, before sitting down and eating the food she made for herself.
“Hmm, what’s up Happy?”
“Can we go visit him today?” Immediately, Lucy teared up, a sad smile reaching her lips.
“‘Course we can. You wanna go after we eat? I know it’s still dark, but…”
“Yeah. That sounds good.” With that, both of them looked over to Natsu, who just grinned. It wasn’t long before they were done eating, and Lucy slid on a skirt, which was nearly covered by Natsu’s shirt.
“Luce, you should put some actual pants on.” The girl shook her head, looking over her shoulder as Happy flew up to land on it. With that, they walked out the door, heading down the path from their house. When they got near the river, Lucy sat down carefully on her knees in front of two gravestones.
“You can go first Happy, then you should go check on Carla.” Happy nodded, and Natsu walked over to his girl, carefully wrapping a few strands of her hair around his finger, curling it before releasing it, just enjoying her presence. But all too soon, Happy was done and Lucy stood up, Natsu following behind her to the second gravestone that was out there.
Lucy gave Happy a quick hug before releasing him to go find Carla and turning back to the gravestone, once again sitting down.
“Hey. I know it’s been about a month since I came out here to talk to you.” She paused, looking at the stone, and Natsu sat beside her, setting an arm across her shoulders. “I’ve wanted to walk out here so many times, but I couldn’t bring myself to. I miss you too much, you know?” Her lower lip started trembling before she caught herself and bit it to still the traitorous lip. “Everything is so different without you. Everyone misses you, but I think I’m one of them who misses you more.”
She chuckled a tear slipping down her face and Natsu slid closer, hugging her. “Fuck, it hurts so much, not seeing you everyday.” She clenched and unclenched her fists in her lap. “If Acnologia weren’t already dead I would kill him for what he did. Zeref too. I don’t care what you would have said. They took you away from me, away from us. Away from her.” Natsu looked over at Lucy confused, seeing her hands were then wrapped around herself.
“I’m so worried. What if I do something wrong? Say something mean, or cruel. You were supposed to be the fun one. Sure, you can be serious, but it was supposed to be good cop, bad cop.” Her hands moved up to her eyes, shaking as she forced a laugh. “I’m not good at this, I wasn’t ready, but I know that I don’t regret it. And I hope you don’t either.” She clutched onto his scarf again, holding it tight.
“I know I’ll have the help of the guild, but it would have been so much better with you. Dammit Natsu! Why did you have to go and be the hero?” She was yelling at him? Natsu looked at her concerned. “I’m not okay, not even close to it! I miss you so damn much! I hate that you won’t be here to raise her with me. It’s not fair! To her, to me, to you.” A sad smile fell across her face. “Yeah. We’re gonna have a kid Natsu. It’s a girl.” A sob choked out of her throat and she rested her hands against her stomach. “Wendy told me last month, when I kept getting sick. Apparently I’m about five months along.”
Natsu watched her with tears streaming down his face. Lucy stood up, going closer to the stone before sitting down in front of it, running her fingers over the groove in the stone. Natsu followed along with her fingers. Seeing something had been freshly added by someone else. Natsu Dragneel. Fierce Dragon Slayer. Loyal friend. Loving partner. And the freshly added: Would’ve been a wonderful father. As Lucy stood up she looked at the other stone as well.
“Igneel, Natsu… I hope you guys are watching over us, and will watch your daughter and granddaughter grow. I hope you guys will guide me as I go. And Natsu, I will always love you, and she is proof of that.”
“I will always love you too, Luce.”
“As you should.” A voice came from behind him, and he turned to see his father standing there.
“Hey kiddo. You found a strong woman there. And as long as we watch over them, I’m sure they’ll be just fine.”
“Yeah, it’s just hard to believe that I’m not there with her, that I’m just a ghost…”
“With time, it’ll get easier, and you’ll see them again, hopefully not for a long time, but you will, and then you’ll get to meet your daughter.” And that was all Natsu could take before he fell to his knees beside where Lucy was still standing, and he broke down crying.
“I won’t get to raise her, oh Mavis, Lucy’s gonna have a kid, my kid, and I’m not even going to be there for it.” Lucy’s voice rang out loud and clear then, bringing Natsu from his knees.
“I know you’ll be here through it all Natsu. Just as you always have been. Goodbye for now, my love.”
Final day of NaLu Angst Week 2018! Ahh, how was that? I’ve had this written for a long time now! Inspired by some artwork by aloosh-s on Tumblr. I literally cried when I saw it and had this idea. When it was done I was waiting for the right time to post it, and I have decided to that you all with it now! Anyway, let me know if you have and questions or comments! As always, I love hearing from you.